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Resisting is tiring.

Letting it be is scary.

So what shall it be?

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I don’t know and it’s all your fault.

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I’m so calm about this that I’m scaring myself. I don’t know if this will all blow up someday or if it would just slowly fade away. At this rate though, the latter is unlikely. But the former is just plain stressful. Its funny how I keep playing possible scenes in my head and practicing how I’d react to each situation. So I guess I’m not really calm about the situation. I just seem so, but really, if you could read my mind…

I’m lost.

So I’m just going to let it be for now.